I'm Back!!!

I"m back to blogging. Finally after all the hustle and bustle of wedding preparations. Time flies so fast and now it feels like I woke up one morning and I'm married. To be happy or not it is actually a combination of both. Reason being, I miss my family members and friends alot and the only one person I have is my husband. Living with my husband in another town with no one close around sometimes is quite depressing. Even if I go back to my parents home on weekends, i don't have time to meet up with my close friends as I need to spend time with my family. I don't have enough time. Now I only meet my close friends once in say two to three months.

When things get stormy with my husband, and in the midst of anger, sadness, disappointment and hurt I have no one to talk to. So I figured out that though you may have a husband, you still cannot count on him to comfort you in the midst of the storm. In the end I'm still alone and there's no one who can pick me up but myself. My husband will never comprehend how it feels like to live with no friends and family around you except your in-laws unless I make him live with my family back at home. Sigh...

This is just the beginning of a long journey ahead of me. It has been only three months. I hope I can hang on for the many unpredictable years ahead of me. When only three months I feel like giving up at times. Or maybe I'll be numb in few years time just like what a friend said to me. If I had a choice to choose again, I don't know if I would choose the right road. Because in life there are many choices and when we decide on one we cannot turn back and marriage is one. "To have and to hold, for better or worst, til death do us part..."

Sekali Ini Saja

I would like to dedicate this song to the person who dedicated this song to me. There are a lot of "If Only's...." In such a short time you left very deep footprints in my heart which is undeniably one of the deepest. The reason I dedicated this song to you is because of the same reason you dedicated it to me. I will be missing you.

Glenn Fredly - Sekali Ini Saja

Bersamamu
kulewati lebih dari seribu malam
Bersamamu yang ku mau
namun kenyataan yang tak sejalan

Tuhan bila masih ku diberi kesempatan
Izinkan aku untuk mencintanya
Namun bila waktuku telah habis dengannya
Biar cinta hidup sekali ini saja

Tak sanggup bila harus jujur
Hidup tanpa hembusan nafasnya

Tuhan bila waktu dapat kuputar kembali
Sekali lagi untuk mencintanya
Namun bila waktuku telah habis dengannya
Biarkan cinta ini...
Hidup untuk sekali ini saja

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Takdir bukan milik kita,
Walaupun kita tidak bisa bersama,
Namun kau selalu dihatiku,
Akanku mengingatimu tuk selamanya.

Malaysia still Home

Finally I'm back. Home sweet home. Arrived on the 1st of February. It was such a good feeling. Eveything seemed so familiar. I went home and gave my mum a surprise and she was extremely happy. On that same day, she brought me shopping for my chinese new year clothes. Such a good feeling shopping in Malaysia. I could afford those beautiful clothes and shoes. Finally after all the hard work I get to pamper myself. I was practically indulging in all the luxuries Malaysia could offer. Only one thing wasn't as perfect; the weather. I have always liked cold weather and the four seasons. I'm going to miss that very much. I've been very busy since I touched down. So sorry darlings, with Chinese New Year around I could not avoid it. I am officially free now so yes let's go out and meet up. I miss you guys. Thanks for being patient!!! muaks!!! Love ya all!!!