I'm Back!!!

I"m back to blogging. Finally after all the hustle and bustle of wedding preparations. Time flies so fast and now it feels like I woke up one morning and I'm married. To be happy or not it is actually a combination of both. Reason being, I miss my family members and friends alot and the only one person I have is my husband. Living with my husband in another town with no one close around sometimes is quite depressing. Even if I go back to my parents home on weekends, i don't have time to meet up with my close friends as I need to spend time with my family. I don't have enough time. Now I only meet my close friends once in say two to three months.

When things get stormy with my husband, and in the midst of anger, sadness, disappointment and hurt I have no one to talk to. So I figured out that though you may have a husband, you still cannot count on him to comfort you in the midst of the storm. In the end I'm still alone and there's no one who can pick me up but myself. My husband will never comprehend how it feels like to live with no friends and family around you except your in-laws unless I make him live with my family back at home. Sigh...

This is just the beginning of a long journey ahead of me. It has been only three months. I hope I can hang on for the many unpredictable years ahead of me. When only three months I feel like giving up at times. Or maybe I'll be numb in few years time just like what a friend said to me. If I had a choice to choose again, I don't know if I would choose the right road. Because in life there are many choices and when we decide on one we cannot turn back and marriage is one. "To have and to hold, for better or worst, til death do us part..."