Sekali Ini Saja

I would like to dedicate this song to the person who dedicated this song to me. There are a lot of "If Only's...." In such a short time you left very deep footprints in my heart which is undeniably one of the deepest. The reason I dedicated this song to you is because of the same reason you dedicated it to me. I will be missing you.

Glenn Fredly - Sekali Ini Saja

Bersamamu
kulewati lebih dari seribu malam
Bersamamu yang ku mau
namun kenyataan yang tak sejalan

Tuhan bila masih ku diberi kesempatan
Izinkan aku untuk mencintanya
Namun bila waktuku telah habis dengannya
Biar cinta hidup sekali ini saja

Tak sanggup bila harus jujur
Hidup tanpa hembusan nafasnya

Tuhan bila waktu dapat kuputar kembali
Sekali lagi untuk mencintanya
Namun bila waktuku telah habis dengannya
Biarkan cinta ini...
Hidup untuk sekali ini saja

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Takdir bukan milik kita,
Walaupun kita tidak bisa bersama,
Namun kau selalu dihatiku,
Akanku mengingatimu tuk selamanya.

Malaysia still Home

Finally I'm back. Home sweet home. Arrived on the 1st of February. It was such a good feeling. Eveything seemed so familiar. I went home and gave my mum a surprise and she was extremely happy. On that same day, she brought me shopping for my chinese new year clothes. Such a good feeling shopping in Malaysia. I could afford those beautiful clothes and shoes. Finally after all the hard work I get to pamper myself. I was practically indulging in all the luxuries Malaysia could offer. Only one thing wasn't as perfect; the weather. I have always liked cold weather and the four seasons. I'm going to miss that very much. I've been very busy since I touched down. So sorry darlings, with Chinese New Year around I could not avoid it. I am officially free now so yes let's go out and meet up. I miss you guys. Thanks for being patient!!! muaks!!! Love ya all!!!

Specially dedicated to Kelvin...

Kelvin Lam....Lamb Lamb sounds better....I miss you Lamb Lamb....I miss the 38 times and the college times we shared. Always aarguing with each other. Always getting at each other...and lots more...I know you miss me cos UK is so boring and without me around it's worst...Haha...Your life is just boring without me..ahahha...You have to admit that. Well I might have good news for you. I might continue my studies soon I guess maybe after next year but might be at a different location and we could meet uo if you are still in UK then. Anyway you have been a wonderful friend all these while and I really really miss you company and our "38" times, "yam-cha" times, movie times and more. Take care my dear friend. I miss you sssssooooooooo muchies!!! I'm fine someone broke my heart but I'm ok now. Thanks for caring....You were the one I run to when I have problems. But now you are so far!!!!! Anyway, just wanna tell you I miss you alot....Come back let me know ok...bye!!!

Kenangan Terindah

Something meaningful I found...

Aku yang lemah tanpamu
Aku yang rentan karena
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu
Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka
Sampai jantung tak berdetak
Selama itu pun
Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu...
Kutemukan hidupku Bagiku...
Kau lah cinta sejati

Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

I'm not heart broken anymore....

With reference to my previous post,"Someone I might lose or keep", today I have decided to let go of my dear friend. I am not going to be heart broken and saddened by our cold friendship anymore. Thanks to all my dear friends who has been there advising me and giving me moral support. I have thought about all the advises given and I am back to normal again. The happy Felicia all of you know. Sorry to Haric, Rush Darling, Hairul and Fhai that I have been so down these few days. I am back to my normal self now. To those people mentioned above and also Chew Seeng, thanks a lot for your advises. Most of you told me not to mull over a friendship that has turned cold and not negotiable. And he's not giving in either so I guess what you guys said was right. But I will still be his friend if he wants too.