Could I be Wrong?

I was just wondering today if I am currently in a courtship with the right person. Hmmm..... I know I have no reason whatsoever to leave this wonderful guy. I just hope he won't portray his love and affection by buying materialistic things like what my ex did. Because what I want is not things or that of what money can buy......time.

Time together is what I want and if that is what I can't get, I'll move on to another person. If my husband is the type to be home by the time I sleep or just staying at home for minutes after he comes back from work, then I might as well not be married. What is the point of marrying someone whom you only get to see when you awake, back from work just minutes before he goes to his next agenda for the night after his dinner, and peeking through the darkness in the night with sleepy eyes to see that shadowy figure doing something with an impulse that says, "Oh, he's back", and goes back to sleep again.

I do not wish to have that kind of a spouse. I want a spouse who would spend quality time with me together, like doing activities together, going out for movies together, spending time talking to each other in the room before sleeping and so on. I don't think that is too much to ask for. It's not that I'm not being understanding enough. Why don't guys be understanding enough? Why is it always that the females have to be understanding?! Guys always say girls aren't understanding enough....Why can't they just turn it around and understand us instead?!

Guys are somewhat selfish in nature just that some do not realize. I've come to know this fact because few guys confessed it to me. Well I hope guys who read this will realize the importance of quality time. Need to get back to my work. Just felt a need to pen down my thoughts for the day. Till then....I'm outta here!!!

Happy New Year

It has come an end to the year 2006 and welcome 2007!!!! Spent new year's eve at Port Dickson at a resort along with a few friends. I had a wonderful time ushering into 2007! Will post photos and update my blog after my finals. Till then,


HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007!!!!


May all of you have a blessed and prosperous year ahead, with good health and abundance of blessings !!! God bless the world!!!

Busy Busy.....

From now on till maybe February, I might not blog anymore. Finals coming up!!! Need to rush my work. To all that has been reading my blog, I'm so sorry....will resume me blogging after my finals. Till then take care all!!! Muaks!

MEN = Double standards + HUGE ego + NArrow MINDED

I got this article from a bulletin board in Friendster. I find it rather true and relevant to me. Here goes...

MEN = Double standards + HUGE ego + Narrow MINDED.
In an interesting studies done by Ngee Ann Polytechnics from Singapore. It gives an insight into what Singaporean men feels about their other half. The study showed how guys are more able to accept a richer partner or a higher educated partner but refused to accept one who is taller than them. The study also showed that there are double standards in men’s selection. The men can be smokers yet refused to accept a partner who smokes. Quite a number wants a virgin wife but yet agrees that pre-marital sex is alright. Does that mean it is okay to f*** around before marriage but when they settle down, the girl must be chaste.Interesting? Double standards to me.Men felt that it is forgivable if they stray but will not forgive his other half if she strays

Better or Worst?

I was awaken early this morning by my mum; at about approximately 0645 hours, nearly 0700 hours. Later on when I was in my beauty sleep again, my mum rang me up on my mobile phone. Felt so frustrated but anyway, waking early is a good thing. Makes me feel fresh though I slept late last night.

When I tried to get myself back into La-La Land, many thoughts went through my mind and I was hungry. So I thought to myself, "Get up have breakfast and blog!". Since I have so many thoughts running through my head I might as well pen it down now that I have the chance too.

Here goes....

For the past three years since I started college, I realized I have changed quite a bit. And ever since I met that someone special in my life I have changed. I noticed it but never really bothered. Is it for the betterment or the opposite, I'm not to judge.

I WAS .....
1)Strong-willed
2)Determined
3)Head-strong
4)Opinionated
5)Independent
6)Feminist
7)Speak-My-Mind kinda person
8)Perfectionist

Whatever happened to me? What happened to the Felicia I knew? The Felicia I knew had a very strong character, whatever happened to her? I want her back. The Felicia I knew would not tolerate imperfections!!!! For example if a guy asked me to be his girlfriend, the first question I would ask is; "Do you smoke?". And if he says, "yes", then I would straight away answer, "Sorry but I do not accept guys who smoke." Yeah I was THAT determined before.

But now what has come of me??? I have become namby-pamby, in other words weak and emotional. That's what I feel. I was hard as a rock before. Maybe due to the hardships I had been through in my previous relationship. Now I have changed to a softy. I have become more submissive, more tolerant and I do not know what else. I told myself before that I would not end up with a smoker and here I am with one now. Hypocrite to myself so I may say. I bend the rules and expectations I had for myself.

Well I guess relationships do leave an impact on a person. But all in all, I still thank God for what I have changed into. I believe God is moulding me into a better person and I do believe God has a reason for everything that has happened or is happening. Maybe God does not want me to be so egoistic. I think God is transforming me to be a more noble person. Ever since I met my boyfriend Kin Fhai, though I call him hubby or Lao gong (in mandarin), I realized that I have changed to be more selfless, tolerant, submissive, patient, gentle, self-controlled, loving and warm. Though I have not lost all my previous characters of being strong-willed, determined and those I mentioned above. I still have them but in the amount that I need. So it was not all a bad thing to love a person that has a habit you abhor. God brought us together for a purpose and the purpose was for the betterment of the both of us in character. He changed his ways too. He might not realise but people around him and I do. And we do complement each others character without realizing it. I hope that we can work out something for his smoking habit. I'm hoping for the best outcome! And I'm glad I met him.

"If you can see an imperfect person as perfect, then that is Love!"