MEN = Double standards + HUGE ego + NArrow MINDED

I got this article from a bulletin board in Friendster. I find it rather true and relevant to me. Here goes...

MEN = Double standards + HUGE ego + Narrow MINDED.
In an interesting studies done by Ngee Ann Polytechnics from Singapore. It gives an insight into what Singaporean men feels about their other half. The study showed how guys are more able to accept a richer partner or a higher educated partner but refused to accept one who is taller than them. The study also showed that there are double standards in men’s selection. The men can be smokers yet refused to accept a partner who smokes. Quite a number wants a virgin wife but yet agrees that pre-marital sex is alright. Does that mean it is okay to f*** around before marriage but when they settle down, the girl must be chaste.Interesting? Double standards to me.Men felt that it is forgivable if they stray but will not forgive his other half if she strays

Better or Worst?

I was awaken early this morning by my mum; at about approximately 0645 hours, nearly 0700 hours. Later on when I was in my beauty sleep again, my mum rang me up on my mobile phone. Felt so frustrated but anyway, waking early is a good thing. Makes me feel fresh though I slept late last night.

When I tried to get myself back into La-La Land, many thoughts went through my mind and I was hungry. So I thought to myself, "Get up have breakfast and blog!". Since I have so many thoughts running through my head I might as well pen it down now that I have the chance too.

Here goes....

For the past three years since I started college, I realized I have changed quite a bit. And ever since I met that someone special in my life I have changed. I noticed it but never really bothered. Is it for the betterment or the opposite, I'm not to judge.

I WAS .....
1)Strong-willed
2)Determined
3)Head-strong
4)Opinionated
5)Independent
6)Feminist
7)Speak-My-Mind kinda person
8)Perfectionist

Whatever happened to me? What happened to the Felicia I knew? The Felicia I knew had a very strong character, whatever happened to her? I want her back. The Felicia I knew would not tolerate imperfections!!!! For example if a guy asked me to be his girlfriend, the first question I would ask is; "Do you smoke?". And if he says, "yes", then I would straight away answer, "Sorry but I do not accept guys who smoke." Yeah I was THAT determined before.

But now what has come of me??? I have become namby-pamby, in other words weak and emotional. That's what I feel. I was hard as a rock before. Maybe due to the hardships I had been through in my previous relationship. Now I have changed to a softy. I have become more submissive, more tolerant and I do not know what else. I told myself before that I would not end up with a smoker and here I am with one now. Hypocrite to myself so I may say. I bend the rules and expectations I had for myself.

Well I guess relationships do leave an impact on a person. But all in all, I still thank God for what I have changed into. I believe God is moulding me into a better person and I do believe God has a reason for everything that has happened or is happening. Maybe God does not want me to be so egoistic. I think God is transforming me to be a more noble person. Ever since I met my boyfriend Kin Fhai, though I call him hubby or Lao gong (in mandarin), I realized that I have changed to be more selfless, tolerant, submissive, patient, gentle, self-controlled, loving and warm. Though I have not lost all my previous characters of being strong-willed, determined and those I mentioned above. I still have them but in the amount that I need. So it was not all a bad thing to love a person that has a habit you abhor. God brought us together for a purpose and the purpose was for the betterment of the both of us in character. He changed his ways too. He might not realise but people around him and I do. And we do complement each others character without realizing it. I hope that we can work out something for his smoking habit. I'm hoping for the best outcome! And I'm glad I met him.

"If you can see an imperfect person as perfect, then that is Love!"

Fateful Month

November has been rather a fateful month for me. Never before have I felt so ill-fated for such a long period. First, my laptop CD-Rom backed out on me when I was in need of it to do my 3D works. Fine, I took it for repair at the HP service centre. When I finally brought it back I was so happy I could resume my assignments. Then, I had never imagine that the slightest thing could have happened. That the DVD-Rom would break down yet again (just after the repair!!!! Can you imagine??!!!). Yea it did. There was something wrong with the newly installed DVD-Rom. Out of eight times it would only pop-out twice....GREAT!!! I was thinking to myself what a lousy laptop. Fine took it back for service as soon as possble. Finally, the second time round it did not back out on me again. Thank God. After that, I celebrated my birthday and then came my dad's birthday. That night we had dinner at the famous Bintang Walk in the heart of the city. Everything seemed oh so well.

At 5:50 a.m. on the 27/11/06 however, my stomach began to feel warm. I have no idea why. A few seconds later, I felt like throwing up and so I headed for the washroom. I started throwing up. I was thinking to myself....."Great this is not gonna be good". Yea so every two hours of that day I just threw up. I could not eat at all. I was I would say alone at home??? My brother would not help much. Can't depend on him. All he'll do is ask me to wait when I'm in need of food and water. Which is not good at all. I felt rather miserable. I was in pain, fatigue and basically bed-ridden. I didn't have energy to even speak. I felt very very miserable or in other words " xing ku" in mandarin. For 3 days I felt miserable. My mum was not around either to look after me. She could not take leave because her colleague was on leave. So I decided to go to hubby's house. My mum thought that it would be a good idea too since there was no one at home to look after me and cook for me. Hubby's mum was a housewife so she could look after me and cook for me, because I can't consume outside food or I'll take a long time to recover. Hubby and his mum thought that it would be a good idea too. So hubby came the next morning and fetch me to his home. There, I was much better. Hubby's dad gave me some medicine which took immediate effect after I consumed it.

Thanks to hubby's mum and dad's care and also hubby's care, I was feeling better just after a day. I had more energy, and apetite though my apetite was small. During this time, I lost alot of weight. Hubby also said I'm so skinny now. I'm glad hubby was there for me when my mum couldn't be there for me. Hubby was there to take care of me at nite. He made sure I was feeling alright now and then. He made sure I slept well and he accompanied me till I fell asleep. I definitly love him very much. Eventhough he is busy, he makes time for me. Thanks Laogong.....Love you very very much....Thanks for sacrificing so much for me.